i can't sleep!!!
its almost 5 am in the morning now...
i'm still up...
bloody hell,
i just can't seem t fall asleep...
argh...

divine abode
just got home from town...
had lunch at subway plus,
watched hero with dear...
haven shower and dun intend to...





yet..
cos i still smell like dear...
*sheepish grin*

managed to get a couple seat for the show...
helps alot if u have damn alot of bags...
or if u intend to get a little cosier...
anyway,

i been wanting to post a proper post for a few days le...
just that i couldn't find inspirations to,
or i'm simply just lazy...

saw some people online just now...
felt pretty ticked off...
my loath for em' just keeps growing...
i dun like u mean i dun like u...
but i can smile diplomatically at u...
you say i'm plastic but i don't care...
i'm just doing what i need to get out...
after this,
its gonna be "bye bye, see u again, not!"

enough of exhibiting my displeasure...
now for something on my mind...

its painful to be so close but yet so far...
2 person walking side by side...
both keeping quiet...
not saying anything...
they both know what their hearts crave...
but kept apart by force majeure...
where's the paradise that minds, souls and form twines?
where do u sought divine abode?

argh...
i'm daydreaming about divine abode again...
if god had to take 7 days,
i pray that i only take 7 years...

filler post
haven been updating for a long time now...
gonna upload some photos randomly taken from my phone...
shall do a proper update tml...













































lavander something one...
i remember!!!
lavander lime...
from bakerzin...
but it taste like tic tac!!!!














































i'm vain...
i know...





















stupid auntie from FC1 refuse to let miao san get this changed...
NEVER BUY FROM THEM AGAIN!!!

smile like idiot
just read sista's blog...
saw the lastest entry...
16 months of crabstick and cow...
awww...

this kind of "awww" just makes me smile like an idiot...
jia wei knows this best...
he's seen me like this too many times...
the silly, happy cum excitedness radiating from within...

oh well,
since i'm here,
typing all these happy stuff...
might as well just update all my other happy stuff...

NiuNiu sms-ed last night...
new camp again...
now got Tv in the bunk liao...
hopefully exercises are not too tough...
otherwise, its pretty good life...
not to mention a sweetie for him...
awww...
never seen NiuNiu so in love before...
haha...

and jia wei's A levels are finished...
free man already...
now dunno wad to occupy his time with...
everyday good life,
sleep late, wake up late,
accumulate good karma,
*grin grin*

and oh!
cannot forget to mention the kissing thingy...
**only the 2 of us know**
wakakakaka~~~

anyway, time to go for my next class le...
transport engin
projects are killing me...
hardly get enought beauty rest nowadays...
pimples popping up like mad...
argh...

lucky there's my dear to get me out of bed...
Love u lots dear!!!!
muacks x 154546944465 times!
wow.. thats alot of kisses...
maybe kiss until the lips will lan diao...
Lol...

quick update
haven updated for 10 days le...
think i have to update le...
before i start forgetting things...
haha...
lets go by date...

9/11/07
friday...
transport engin was erm ok-ish...
did closing after school...
forgot who i did closing with...

10/11/07
work again...
nothing much to update...

11/11/07
work again...
boss is becoming such an ass...
old man can't watch his language...
rude bastard can't hide under horny,
self-denial-17-year-young self proclaimed image anymore?

12/11/07
din wanna go to school in the morning..
still did drag my flabby ass out of bed though...
fan kee seng is still as "glass closet" as ever...

loo chin nong cut his hair!!!
damn cute...

saw daniel tan in at FC1...
of all places, FC1, la unglam food court...
when i'm walking like a queen...
omg!

huang rose was a disaster...
flung TT3...
flung it atrociously...

asked vincent to go for ice cream cos i'm monday blue-ing...
but din go cos he's choopp-ed...
nvm...

anyway,
i have something i wanna say about work...
work is becoming more and more of a chore to me...
weekends are meant to be fun and relaxation...
weekends are for going out with friends...
weekends can be for working too...

for the past 23 months,
it was option 3...

what originally was fun has become lifeless,
monotone, target oriented, business...
what originally was relaxation has become stress...
non beneficial bitching has been getting in the way...

i need to take a break from work...
i need to stop and redefine the word work...
i need something more...
something that is less physically straining,
pays more and better for me...

yang zhi gan lu
lots of things happened over the last couple of day...
i also dunno how to describe...

first of all, bao bei and i are fine now...
storm's passed but the water remains...
now the water will sink into the soil and nourish the roots...

however too much water may not be a good thing...
too much water can cause root rot...


anyway, went out with henry today...
went to bugis to look for soccer jerseys...
but then dun have the one we looking for...

so went to see rings...
but none that i like...
not very fruitful trip...

never mind...
still got sunday can go see with daniel...
so we went to have dinner since both of us getting hungry...
went across to the duck rice stall...
then had desert at ah chew's again...

i had which is yang zhi gan lu...
basically mango sago with pomelo bits...
nice!!!!
then henry had chilled steamed egg with ginger...
not say fantastic cos the ginger smells damn raw...
oh well...
i intend to try everything they have on the menu...
haha

took some pictures while waiting for henry to get back with the food...
did some editing to it too...












































edited this one....
nicer?
but have to say i like this one the most...
cos got this vintage feel to it...


















took this last week b4 opening...
chris pussy late lar....
my legs damn pretty right?
sexy!!!




























































blackberry topping on oat meal....
looks nice hor?
damn sweet too...
hahaha

i need you
i really feel like crying my eyes out now...
its hurts to know that i've hurt someone so badly...
its breaks me up from inside...
layer by layer, its tortures the hell out of me...

to know that something so right can go so wrong...
its painful...
i just feel like crying my heart out...
slap me, hit me, scold me, kick me...
i want you to talk to me...
i need you as much as you need me...
i can't lose you either...

bao bei...
i'm really sorry that i din hear your call...
my phone was in my bag,
i was away...
i tried so many times to call back...
i messaged...
i'm scared...

thought u went to bed so i din call anymore...
but i know that u're upset...
and i apologise for that...
first mistake was that i wasn't with my phone...
second mistake was that i broke my promise to you...

just this morning only,
i promised to never make u worry again...
but still,
i broke my promise...
i'm sorry...
i deserved to be hit...
i dun deserve to have someone who cares so much...

third mistake was that i din tell u where i was...
i made u worry so much...
haiz...

and to know that we were so happy just this morning...
shopping,
going out,
being in the sun with you...
ended up like this...
it makes my heart drop...
the feeling of fear of loosing someone so close to heart...
that urge to just bawl my eyes and heart out...
the urge to have everything back to normal is so hard to bear...

when will the rain stop pouring?
when will the clouds part?
when will this storm pass?
when will the winds blow again?
when will the sun shine again?

healthy mocha?
i'm soo craving for mocha now...
pipping hot, topped with oh-so-unhealthy whipped cream...
argh...
i really wan mocha badly now...
i want mocha now!!!
going mad soon...
arghh...

i know i shouldn't have the whipped cream...
but i want it...
i want it badly...
so how?
once or twice is fine...
but how long can you keep having it?
without the risk of heart disease from the cream...

can i have the healthy version of whipped cream?
something that wun kill u?
something that is safe even for long periods of drinking...
haiz...
till that day...