muo zie
its 1.30 am now...
i'm typing this entry from my living room...
sitting on my dining chair,
facing the front door,
looking straight out to the blk opposite...

the orangy lights are on,
the cactus container on my right,
the glass container's slightly open,
everyone is the hse, maybe the entire blk is asleep...
even my pet mantis is asleep...
hasn't been moving for the last 10 minute or so..

playing some youtube video in the background...
some aj guy mumbling some confession...
really sad nostalgic story...

and here i am,
feeling cold, lonely and pretty thirsty...
haiz...

haven shower since i step into the hse...
its been 2 hrs already...
guess i can really tuo...
my mum always says that i'm a muo zie...
i dun deny...
can laze in bed for 3 hrs...
dun deny that as well...

now listening to a beyonce song...
still in love (kissing you)
all that "i'm missing-someone" feeling...
sigh...
not the sad sigh but the oh-so nostalgic kind of sigh...

looks up and notice that the corridor lights kinda spoilt,
dimmer that the rest of the lights along the corridor...

is there any other soul i'm close to whose awake now?
wish that piggy din have to go to work tml,
then can pei me talk on the phone,
i wun mind taking a cab over and nua tgt...
sigh again...

i miss piggy...
i really do...
even bastian is getting to spend time with his dar dar...
i wonder when will i get to see piggy again...
piggy, if u're reading this,
i miss you!!!
hug and kisses...

listen to whitney's houston's i will always love you...
hmmm...
slow, powerful and nostalgic,
exactly the way i'm feeling now...

i wonder what i should do now...
sigh again...
this time the long and slow one...

its almost 2...
1.54am actually
just changed song...
how do i live - Leann Rimes

just remembered i'm gonna get my NUM flip flops on friday...
most probably after work...
around 8 or 9...
think i wan get the blue one...
thinking of dragging someone to go with me...
who shall i get?
piggy's got cell group dinner,
unless is after that...
daniel? dunno..
christie? might be working..
jia wei? busy...
hmmm...
see how la...

2.03am...
guang liang - tong hua
i still want to watch 881...
argh...
feel like asking kak hari and grace to go watch...
wonder if they wan...
sms them tml...

sian...
going to be stuck at RC tml and friday...
such a drag...

2.06am
guang liang - tian tang
okok... this shall be the last song for today...
must go and shower and sleep after this...
i got a super super long day tml...
or should i say later...
haha...
class gathering, work...
thats it, 12 hrs gone... no wonder they say time flies...
more like burnt away...

good night piggy,
good night the rest of the world who might still be awake
ok bye.
ivan aka ivan-derella aka spiderpig
2.09am