growin up
i want to blog...
but my mind is all jumbled up...
haven arranged my thoughts...
haven thought of how to say them,
how do i convert wad's up there into words?

*pause*
*looks at one corner and starts thinking*

woke up early today...
wanted to sleep a little more but couldn't...
lazed in bed for about an hour...
sms-ed piggy...
thought about things...

yea...
thought that i should grow up...
its childish to be over-possessive...
it just reflects your insecurity...

me going over and then staying over,
doesn't mean certain things...
all i wanted was to spend time together...
was it that difficult?

anyone else would say that:
"wouldn't your own bed be more comfortable?"

now that i think back at it...
its true though...
since both of u are tired,
might as well just go home and sleep.
why do u have to squeeze?

hmmm...
why did i get upset?
nothing to be unhappy about...
maybe i was just greedy...
maybe i was just asking for too much...
haiz...

but now i'm fine i guess....

sometimes i wish i could just sit somewhere and blow bubbles...
put all my childishness, stupidity, insecurities in them...
and let the wind bring them away...

SB-PW ppl going to watch harry potter tonight!!!
argh...
i'm opening tml...
can't join them... so sad...

anyway,
i've recovered already...
back to solid food, back to push ups...
back to projects after this...
but with smiles... :D